Living the Dream

Sorry for the time away, life has been what some would call CRAZY! lately! But that is no excuse.

Living the Dream or living the life that we want to live some times comes with Road Blocks. The life that we see as the end all be all sometimes ends up being the life that never comes true, that stays the Oedipus that we never quite achieve. But then there is the life that we deal with every day, the life that we can either accept or deny, it is our choice.

Life's dream and nightmares come and go, but it is what you do with them that makes the difference. I am not one to go with the old saying of lemons and lemonade, I would much rather take the lemons and stuff them some where the sun does not shine when they are hurled at me. I know that I am only handed what I can handle but at the same time could that certain someone PLEASE pick someone else to hand that crap too? I mean really there really is only so much one person or family can handle.

I know that there are much worse situations out there and that I should be grateful for all that I have, but would it such a bad thing to just have one year of what we want? What we deserve? What we need?

The kids are healthy and we have good jobs, we have a nice house and two cars that run that are paid off, and for the most part we are ok with everything else! But it would be nice to have a little nicer house, brand new cars and get paid more from work, but whatever!

The only way to change that is by doing what we can, live the dream every day, take care of ourselves and have fun, so that is what we are going to do. Fortify the base and have fun doing it! So watch out here we come!

Spreading their little wings

This past week has been fun and a challenge. You see I am sending my little girl to school this coming Tuesday. Last year the older one went and I was OK with that, letting them spreed their wings and fly, right? Well I am having a harder time with this one! Not sure if it is because time has flown over the past 5 years, if it has to do with the fact that I will be 35 in October or if it just means that a new stage has started for our family.
I don't remember what it was like to not have those two smiling faces in the house, nor do I remember what I did with all my time. What I do know is that now that both of them are going to be in school all day EVERY day, there will be a large change in the house. Even though I work outside of the house, I know that coming home from work to get them off the bus will be a treat, to hear what they learned in school will be exciting (even though there will be a lot of "nothing" or "I don't know" as answers).
The hubby & I will have more "us" time when those occasional days off together arrive, which will be nice. We will be able to get more done around house, yeah right! But it will be fun.
I know that Tuesday will be a long day at work once we get them on the bus, but it will be good.
Time for big sister to be there when mom and dad are not! Nicki will be great, she already is, she "shares" her friends.
Em has a few advantages that some of the others don't, she has the same teacher that Nicki had last year (a blessing since we know the teacher too) she knows 4 girls in Nicki's class so she will be OK on the play ground and lastly is that she is very independent. She will be fine, so why am I so concerned? Not sure, oh yeah she is my baby!
Here is to a great year for all my Mommy friends out there!

Not Me Monday

As I think about what to write about this week, I look upon the three most important people in my lives. They all look to me to make sure that the house is taken care of, that the daily routine is not too much out of whack, that the clothes that they are wearing are clean (partially at least) that the bills are paid (mostly on time) and that food that they eat is warm when it needs to be or cold when it supposed to be. But then I look at them and try to figure out what I am supposed to really be.

Sitting in the room listening to "tunes" I did when I was "young" makes the think what I have NOT become. I have not become the English teacher that I started go to school to be, I am not the Paralegal that I also started to go to school for. I am not the girl who traveled the world then settled in some far off city. I am not the girl who went away to school and found love far from home. I am not the girl who became a famous singer, the girl who was a back up singer for Madonna, I am not the girl who is a size 2 or 6 feet tall.

Instead I have become the girl who fell in love with a great guy, close to home, traveled here and there, works for a great company working with numbers not letters (still basics right?) Bought a house close to "home" Became a mommy of 2 great girls and I can sing great at church with the best of them. Still working on the size 2 might be more like a 10 when I am done with it, but oh well. And can come really close to 6 feet with 4 inch heals!

When the day is done there is no one I would rather be, NOT ME.... I mean I love me!

Weekly Winners August 8th to 15th

Rockin New Shoes

Mary Kay Champions Night!

Comfort Food!

Before and After~ Dream Dresses

A wonderful week, very jam packed but tons of fun! For more great Weekly Winners Check out http://sarcasticmom.com/ !

Life on the Run

So as I sit at my desk catching up on other's lives over the past few days, I realize how much I have going on. Not to mention how much I have missed these past weeks.

I know that life is important and that there is tons going on, but I think it is about time to "stop and smell the roses."

Today I was talking (emailing) my good friend Mommy Always Wins(http://www.mommyalwayswins.com/) about how life is going for her. They have had a roller coaster life including cork screw after cork screw, loopdie loop and dip after dip for the past 2+ years, hard to imagine that they can even walk straight let alone know when and who goes where. Anyway I digress! We were talking about how life goes by way to fast, that she has yet to figure out what school her 4 year old is going to go to in the fall and the fact that my kids have nothing ready for 1st grade and kindergarten. (Sniff, Sniff, my baby is going to start school).

So after "talking" I went to my boss (who really is a great friend) and told her that I was taking a week off, before the kids went to school. Cross eyed and frustrated she signed my PTO request... Why did I feel guilty? Why should I not take time off to be with my kids? Why should I not be able to take time for me?

There are certain things in life I truly believe are more important than the daily grind. My Sanity, My Family and My Choice.

I have come to the conclusion that work is work and at some time is either makes us or breaks us. I really would prefer to make it Make Me rather than Break me!

Life is too short to just realize that my little girls are almost as tall as me, I know I am short thus the 4 inch heals, but really this morning I sat on my bed looking at my babies and realized they were not babies anymore. Daily I watch them grow taller and bigger, they have become their own persons, with their own personalities, own likes and dislikes and each is becoming a great person, did I have a part in that?

Was I there enough to make sure that part of me is in them?

What did I miss?

What will I miss?

What can I not afford to miss?

Honestly I really don't want to stand by and wait to see, so stay tuned to the future of 2 Sweet Girls Mom...

Not Me Monday July 20th

Not me today... Not me tomorrow... Not me the next day either.
I will admit that I did not wish that the whole house wake up this morning on its own, get dressed, let the puppy out (which I can proudly announce with knocking on wood that is litter trained) and make their own breakfast. I will also not admit that I wish the sitter was old enough to drive so I or the hubs did not have to pick her up. I will also admit that I did not heave a heavy sigh when hubs asked if there was anything in the house for a sore throat last night while I was settling into a good rant (not so much here or here more here~ what does that mean?) (Honey? What? No? I hate honey)
I also will not admit that the kids have been driving me crazy as of late, that their constant bickering is not driving me up the wall. School is just around the corner right!? Naps that is the ticket more naps!
I will also not admit truthfully that I secretly love all the Polka Days hub bub that goes on at this time of year. Polka Days is a whole other post and will be done sometime next week~ that is if my hands and mind still work! Put mildly it is 4 days of fun, food and special treats at the bro's bakery!
I will also not admit that I was relieved that there were only a few people show up to my jewelry party on Saturday since I was not into it and did not do my normal food and drink fair. I will admit that I am the queen of shows and usually do a great job on it, not this one!
I will also not admit that I know that the Mary Kay job will be great, that it will be the ticket to freedom, not admitting that I do truly love what I do in my real job but sometimes the vision of a pink Caddy it to much.
That is about all for Not Me today, maybe not me tomorrow and definitely not me the next day either but maybe Thursday! Good Luck!

Weekly Winners July 13 to July 19th

Mary Kay Wanna Be & Roses from my Mary "Kan"

One Sad Puppy & One Sad little Girl

Don't Ask... Yeah she's the Monkey Girl

My Uncles- Like Old Time ~ Me & budda baby

My Big bro at his 25th Anniversary

A wonderful week, very jam packed but tons of fun! For more great Weekly Winners Check out http://sarcasticmom.com !