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In the past week, many memories have come to the forefront with my niece getting engaged. I wanted to share with you a letter I wrote the hubs to show how far we have come!
As time goes by there are certain memories that strike the cords of our hearts. They are the ones that year to year never fade, never diminish, and never go away. The times that will hold dear in your heart until the light fades.
The day that you walked into my life will always hold strong. Standing “tall” on one side of the “fence” while you slouched your way into my heart! Leaping from side to side, to show that you might be able to “accept” me, then being the knight in shining Umbros that saved the day, again and again!
The day that you asked me to be with you for life, chaos like usual all around us! You knew the times would be hard, not as hard as they actual were but you knew they would be there. You stood next to me when times were not so easy or pretty but you never faltered. When you did, you came back for another round, never giving up.
The day we said “I do” was just another step together into the great unknown. An unknown that we were meant to walk together.
Losing those who meant so much, gaining the two that mean more than anything in the world, always by my side, holding my hand no matter what! No matter the pain for either of us, at the end it was more than we could imagine, so much that it has long since been forgotten.
Each day is a new journey, ours to capture, ours to enjoy, ours to concur.
Each conquest is better than the last, each journey we travel together.
Thank you for being my best friend, my partner, my co-conspirator, my love!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
My life on a Merry Go Round
My life on a Merry Go Round says more than I can imagine!
Not only does it seem to rain (I should say SNOW) it pours (rather becomes a Blizzard). But oh well, what can I do.
This year has started to be really good. We (more hubs planning and me just smiling) have set up a great savings plan to pay off our mortgage by the time I turn 40 (5 years from now), we paid off our second mortgage, bought a hot tub to celebrate our 10 year anniversary (in June) and now we just decided to remodel our kitchen (a whole nother post in and of itself).
But at the end of the day I still feel the dizzy sensation that you felt when you were a kid and you stepped off the damn ride.
I have no clue if I am coming or going, whether what we have "decided" on was really what I wanted to do, or just went with it because he is the banker (literally) and it makes sense in his numbers filled mind. He is so obsessed in getting the damn thing paid off that every time he starts to talk about it, I seriously turn off or my brain says "here we go again".
The song lyrics "you spin me right round" continually play in my head as of late, every turn there is something new or old coming up to snag a part of me! No wonder I forgot the kids parent teacher conferences until 5 minutes before the wee little one's! Oh well what to do other than sit on the ride and enjoy it!
Not only does it seem to rain (I should say SNOW) it pours (rather becomes a Blizzard). But oh well, what can I do.
This year has started to be really good. We (more hubs planning and me just smiling) have set up a great savings plan to pay off our mortgage by the time I turn 40 (5 years from now), we paid off our second mortgage, bought a hot tub to celebrate our 10 year anniversary (in June) and now we just decided to remodel our kitchen (a whole nother post in and of itself).
But at the end of the day I still feel the dizzy sensation that you felt when you were a kid and you stepped off the damn ride.
I have no clue if I am coming or going, whether what we have "decided" on was really what I wanted to do, or just went with it because he is the banker (literally) and it makes sense in his numbers filled mind. He is so obsessed in getting the damn thing paid off that every time he starts to talk about it, I seriously turn off or my brain says "here we go again".
The song lyrics "you spin me right round" continually play in my head as of late, every turn there is something new or old coming up to snag a part of me! No wonder I forgot the kids parent teacher conferences until 5 minutes before the wee little one's! Oh well what to do other than sit on the ride and enjoy it!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
When I grow up!
I guess there comes a time when you sit back and realize that one day you will have to grow up. That all the planning and scheming will one day come to fruition and that you will be where you once thought you would be. One day you wake up and realize that, yep, I have officially become an adult. But when that day comes will you be ready? Will you be prepared for the next step in your life? Is where you thought you would be where you are or are you on a completely different path with someone who is only a shadow of your former self?
Deep thoughts, hard questions but ones that you must come to face someday right? I mean really at the end of it all who are you is who you are and there really is no changing that right?
Then you realize that there is a time when you need to just man up and deal with it! That no matter how hard you work for something and how hard you try to maintain what it is you want in life, you need to be ready for the day that "it" comes up and bites you in the butt.
This post was started on 11/9, before many long nights and longer days took place. I guess you could say the writing was on the wall! That the premonition may have been there, that I knew deep down there was something brewing. Work has came calling and no matter if you like it or not you answer!
You take into consideration what could have happened it is still worse than what did. Oh well, time to put on the big Girl panties and deal with it! Yeah! Life goes on!
Deep thoughts, hard questions but ones that you must come to face someday right? I mean really at the end of it all who are you is who you are and there really is no changing that right?
Then you realize that there is a time when you need to just man up and deal with it! That no matter how hard you work for something and how hard you try to maintain what it is you want in life, you need to be ready for the day that "it" comes up and bites you in the butt.
This post was started on 11/9, before many long nights and longer days took place. I guess you could say the writing was on the wall! That the premonition may have been there, that I knew deep down there was something brewing. Work has came calling and no matter if you like it or not you answer!
You take into consideration what could have happened it is still worse than what did. Oh well, time to put on the big Girl panties and deal with it! Yeah! Life goes on!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Living the Dream
Sorry for the time away, life has been what some would call CRAZY! lately! But that is no excuse.
Living the Dream or living the life that we want to live some times comes with Road Blocks. The life that we see as the end all be all sometimes ends up being the life that never comes true, that stays the Oedipus that we never quite achieve. But then there is the life that we deal with every day, the life that we can either accept or deny, it is our choice.
Life's dream and nightmares come and go, but it is what you do with them that makes the difference. I am not one to go with the old saying of lemons and lemonade, I would much rather take the lemons and stuff them some where the sun does not shine when they are hurled at me. I know that I am only handed what I can handle but at the same time could that certain someone PLEASE pick someone else to hand that crap too? I mean really there really is only so much one person or family can handle.
I know that there are much worse situations out there and that I should be grateful for all that I have, but would it such a bad thing to just have one year of what we want? What we deserve? What we need?
The kids are healthy and we have good jobs, we have a nice house and two cars that run that are paid off, and for the most part we are ok with everything else! But it would be nice to have a little nicer house, brand new cars and get paid more from work, but whatever!
The only way to change that is by doing what we can, live the dream every day, take care of ourselves and have fun, so that is what we are going to do. Fortify the base and have fun doing it! So watch out here we come!
Living the Dream or living the life that we want to live some times comes with Road Blocks. The life that we see as the end all be all sometimes ends up being the life that never comes true, that stays the Oedipus that we never quite achieve. But then there is the life that we deal with every day, the life that we can either accept or deny, it is our choice.
Life's dream and nightmares come and go, but it is what you do with them that makes the difference. I am not one to go with the old saying of lemons and lemonade, I would much rather take the lemons and stuff them some where the sun does not shine when they are hurled at me. I know that I am only handed what I can handle but at the same time could that certain someone PLEASE pick someone else to hand that crap too? I mean really there really is only so much one person or family can handle.
I know that there are much worse situations out there and that I should be grateful for all that I have, but would it such a bad thing to just have one year of what we want? What we deserve? What we need?
The kids are healthy and we have good jobs, we have a nice house and two cars that run that are paid off, and for the most part we are ok with everything else! But it would be nice to have a little nicer house, brand new cars and get paid more from work, but whatever!
The only way to change that is by doing what we can, live the dream every day, take care of ourselves and have fun, so that is what we are going to do. Fortify the base and have fun doing it! So watch out here we come!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Spreading their little wings
This past week has been fun and a challenge. You see I am sending my little girl to school this coming Tuesday. Last year the older one went and I was OK with that, letting them spreed their wings and fly, right? Well I am having a harder time with this one! Not sure if it is because time has flown over the past 5 years, if it has to do with the fact that I will be 35 in October or if it just means that a new stage has started for our family.
I don't remember what it was like to not have those two smiling faces in the house, nor do I remember what I did with all my time. What I do know is that now that both of them are going to be in school all day EVERY day, there will be a large change in the house. Even though I work outside of the house, I know that coming home from work to get them off the bus will be a treat, to hear what they learned in school will be exciting (even though there will be a lot of "nothing" or "I don't know" as answers).
The hubby & I will have more "us" time when those occasional days off together arrive, which will be nice. We will be able to get more done around house, yeah right! But it will be fun.
I know that Tuesday will be a long day at work once we get them on the bus, but it will be good.
Time for big sister to be there when mom and dad are not! Nicki will be great, she already is, she "shares" her friends.
Em has a few advantages that some of the others don't, she has the same teacher that Nicki had last year (a blessing since we know the teacher too) she knows 4 girls in Nicki's class so she will be OK on the play ground and lastly is that she is very independent. She will be fine, so why am I so concerned? Not sure, oh yeah she is my baby!
Here is to a great year for all my Mommy friends out there!
I don't remember what it was like to not have those two smiling faces in the house, nor do I remember what I did with all my time. What I do know is that now that both of them are going to be in school all day EVERY day, there will be a large change in the house. Even though I work outside of the house, I know that coming home from work to get them off the bus will be a treat, to hear what they learned in school will be exciting (even though there will be a lot of "nothing" or "I don't know" as answers).
The hubby & I will have more "us" time when those occasional days off together arrive, which will be nice. We will be able to get more done around house, yeah right! But it will be fun.
I know that Tuesday will be a long day at work once we get them on the bus, but it will be good.
Time for big sister to be there when mom and dad are not! Nicki will be great, she already is, she "shares" her friends.
Em has a few advantages that some of the others don't, she has the same teacher that Nicki had last year (a blessing since we know the teacher too) she knows 4 girls in Nicki's class so she will be OK on the play ground and lastly is that she is very independent. She will be fine, so why am I so concerned? Not sure, oh yeah she is my baby!
Here is to a great year for all my Mommy friends out there!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Not Me Monday
As I think about what to write about this week, I look upon the three most important people in my lives. They all look to me to make sure that the house is taken care of, that the daily routine is not too much out of whack, that the clothes that they are wearing are clean (partially at least) that the bills are paid (mostly on time) and that food that they eat is warm when it needs to be or cold when it supposed to be. But then I look at them and try to figure out what I am supposed to really be.
Sitting in the room listening to "tunes" I did when I was "young" makes the think what I have NOT become. I have not become the English teacher that I started go to school to be, I am not the Paralegal that I also started to go to school for. I am not the girl who traveled the world then settled in some far off city. I am not the girl who went away to school and found love far from home. I am not the girl who became a famous singer, the girl who was a back up singer for Madonna, I am not the girl who is a size 2 or 6 feet tall.
Instead I have become the girl who fell in love with a great guy, close to home, traveled here and there, works for a great company working with numbers not letters (still basics right?) Bought a house close to "home" Became a mommy of 2 great girls and I can sing great at church with the best of them. Still working on the size 2 might be more like a 10 when I am done with it, but oh well. And can come really close to 6 feet with 4 inch heals!
When the day is done there is no one I would rather be, NOT ME.... I mean I love me!
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