Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

She Drives Me Crazy!!!!

A long time ago I met a person who would become a very important part of my life! He would become my life line, my best friend, and the reason I wake up everyday.

Then I met another person, one that would be so beautiful that I would wonder how I created her, how I was part of making her who she is. A person who would someday drive me crazy, so crazy that I wonder how I could have created her.



These two people are so much alike it is scary, the way the learn, the way they think and the was they are, are what makes me wonder. You see, it never dawned on me that the day I said my daughter was more and more like her father would soon become a reality. You see, we have thought about it more and more but I really think the this precious little blue eyed blond has a learning issue. Not one that makes life too difficult but one what effects all aspects of the way she learns, the way she makes heads or tails of everything! I really think she is dyslexic. Something that her daddy and her hold in common. One that I really think in the next few weeks will become our reality.

What scares me most of this, is that I don't really have the patience for it, or with the life changes we have inflected upon our selves this past 3 months, I CAN deal with it. I know either way it is not a option to DEAL with it, it will become a reality and I will have no option!



She really is a great kid, one that would hand you the shirt off her back, but one that comes up with some major duzzies for "fibs" about homework so she does not have to do it.



So this is the reality of my life soon to be, not sure what it will become, but I am not sure what it will end up with!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Preparing for another year

Well as the calendar pages get torn off, the days get closer and closer to that day of magic, the first day of school. Hard to believe that it is less than 30 days left of this summer vacation. Where has it gone? What have we done? How much will it going back to school cost?

The kids spent most of the summer in classes, of which I feel kind of guilty. I mean they spend 9 months in school and here I am, the mom that puts them in summer school. And only summer school but in classes that will help them in school next year, not even the fun and crafty ones! June 14th until July 23rd they went. Everyday, up by 7 and in class at 8, out of class at 12:30 and then home by 4. Very little time to play and "adventure"!
I guess I feel guilty because when I was little there was no summer school, no "homework" in the middle of June. Oh well it is to make them better later on right? Or was it just an easy way to get out of having them at a sitters? Granted there were fun classes for them to take, but all gone by the time I got around to getting them in them. Math and Reading are fun right?

Why do I feel the need to justify? Maybe because they have less than 30 days left and of which the hubs and I work most of it.
The plans for the summer, never took off. No trip to Great America or any other "fun" place!
So we now stand waiting patiently for the end of summer, getting in as much sun as we can just to make sure that the rest of the year is good! Oh well there is always next summer right?

Monday, March 22, 2010

Sweet Nothings! Happy 12 year Anniversary of getting engaged

In the past week, many memories have come to the forefront with my niece getting engaged. I wanted to share with you a letter I wrote the hubs to show how far we have come!

As time goes by there are certain memories that strike the cords of our hearts. They are the ones that year to year never fade, never diminish, and never go away. The times that will hold dear in your heart until the light fades.

The day that you walked into my life will always hold strong. Standing “tall” on one side of the “fence” while you slouched your way into my heart! Leaping from side to side, to show that you might be able to “accept” me, then being the knight in shining Umbros that saved the day, again and again!

The day that you asked me to be with you for life, chaos like usual all around us! You knew the times would be hard, not as hard as they actual were but you knew they would be there. You stood next to me when times were not so easy or pretty but you never faltered. When you did, you came back for another round, never giving up.
The day we said “I do” was just another step together into the great unknown. An unknown that we were meant to walk together.
Losing those who meant so much, gaining the two that mean more than anything in the world, always by my side, holding my hand no matter what! No matter the pain for either of us, at the end it was more than we could imagine, so much that it has long since been forgotten.

Each day is a new journey, ours to capture, ours to enjoy, ours to concur.
Each conquest is better than the last, each journey we travel together.

Thank you for being my best friend, my partner, my co-conspirator, my love!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

When I grow up!

I guess there comes a time when you sit back and realize that one day you will have to grow up. That all the planning and scheming will one day come to fruition and that you will be where you once thought you would be. One day you wake up and realize that, yep, I have officially become an adult. But when that day comes will you be ready? Will you be prepared for the next step in your life? Is where you thought you would be where you are or are you on a completely different path with someone who is only a shadow of your former self?



Deep thoughts, hard questions but ones that you must come to face someday right? I mean really at the end of it all who are you is who you are and there really is no changing that right?

Then you realize that there is a time when you need to just man up and deal with it! That no matter how hard you work for something and how hard you try to maintain what it is you want in life, you need to be ready for the day that "it" comes up and bites you in the butt.

This post was started on 11/9, before many long nights and longer days took place. I guess you could say the writing was on the wall! That the premonition may have been there, that I knew deep down there was something brewing. Work has came calling and no matter if you like it or not you answer!

You take into consideration what could have happened it is still worse than what did. Oh well, time to put on the big Girl panties and deal with it! Yeah! Life goes on!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Spreading their little wings

This past week has been fun and a challenge. You see I am sending my little girl to school this coming Tuesday. Last year the older one went and I was OK with that, letting them spreed their wings and fly, right? Well I am having a harder time with this one! Not sure if it is because time has flown over the past 5 years, if it has to do with the fact that I will be 35 in October or if it just means that a new stage has started for our family.
I don't remember what it was like to not have those two smiling faces in the house, nor do I remember what I did with all my time. What I do know is that now that both of them are going to be in school all day EVERY day, there will be a large change in the house. Even though I work outside of the house, I know that coming home from work to get them off the bus will be a treat, to hear what they learned in school will be exciting (even though there will be a lot of "nothing" or "I don't know" as answers).
The hubby & I will have more "us" time when those occasional days off together arrive, which will be nice. We will be able to get more done around house, yeah right! But it will be fun.
I know that Tuesday will be a long day at work once we get them on the bus, but it will be good.
Time for big sister to be there when mom and dad are not! Nicki will be great, she already is, she "shares" her friends.
Em has a few advantages that some of the others don't, she has the same teacher that Nicki had last year (a blessing since we know the teacher too) she knows 4 girls in Nicki's class so she will be OK on the play ground and lastly is that she is very independent. She will be fine, so why am I so concerned? Not sure, oh yeah she is my baby!
Here is to a great year for all my Mommy friends out there!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Life on the Run

So as I sit at my desk catching up on other's lives over the past few days, I realize how much I have going on. Not to mention how much I have missed these past weeks.

I know that life is important and that there is tons going on, but I think it is about time to "stop and smell the roses."

Today I was talking (emailing) my good friend Mommy Always Wins(http://www.mommyalwayswins.com/) about how life is going for her. They have had a roller coaster life including cork screw after cork screw, loopdie loop and dip after dip for the past 2+ years, hard to imagine that they can even walk straight let alone know when and who goes where. Anyway I digress! We were talking about how life goes by way to fast, that she has yet to figure out what school her 4 year old is going to go to in the fall and the fact that my kids have nothing ready for 1st grade and kindergarten. (Sniff, Sniff, my baby is going to start school).

So after "talking" I went to my boss (who really is a great friend) and told her that I was taking a week off, before the kids went to school. Cross eyed and frustrated she signed my PTO request... Why did I feel guilty? Why should I not take time off to be with my kids? Why should I not be able to take time for me?

There are certain things in life I truly believe are more important than the daily grind. My Sanity, My Family and My Choice.

I have come to the conclusion that work is work and at some time is either makes us or breaks us. I really would prefer to make it Make Me rather than Break me!

Life is too short to just realize that my little girls are almost as tall as me, I know I am short thus the 4 inch heals, but really this morning I sat on my bed looking at my babies and realized they were not babies anymore. Daily I watch them grow taller and bigger, they have become their own persons, with their own personalities, own likes and dislikes and each is becoming a great person, did I have a part in that?

Was I there enough to make sure that part of me is in them?

What did I miss?

What will I miss?

What can I not afford to miss?

Honestly I really don't want to stand by and wait to see, so stay tuned to the future of 2 Sweet Girls Mom...

Friday, May 15, 2009

Friday Fragments

Friday Fragments?

So the week is done, well not really but the work week is done and THANK the LORD above that it is! Boy what a week! Pre-Budget meetings to Welcome to Kindergarten I have been running, running, running! But enough of that!

Fragments of the week:
~Meetings
~Crying
~Laughing
~Loving
~Yelling
~Talking

The week was great and hard all in one, but would not change it for the world!

Share some fragment love of your own, please visit Mrs4444 for more fragments and rules!

Monday, March 30, 2009

Dancing Princesses


Dancing Princesses from Carrie Calaway on Vimeo.

Our dancing princesses enjoying fun and life....

only have been working on this for the past 3 days, but finally proof that ABBA is still alive in the hearts of young girls! Enjoy

Saturday, March 28, 2009

So I think I shall write

So as I sit at the table with complete silence (with the exception of the clock ticking) I feel like I should write a post, but what to write about? Something funny? Something inspirational? Something totally outer limits? Not sure but I think I shall write.

So here is what is on my mind.... It is supposed to SNOW, yes I said snow AGAIN. Are we ever going to see a Spring in WI? I am not sure what the best part of winter might be but I believe it has outlived its welcome... GET OUT!!!!

I am not too excited about all the spring cleaning that is due to come my way but it has to be better than the gloom of the winter that we have had. "Spring has Sprung" not in WI, that is foooo shuooo.

Did you ever wonder why people do the things they do? I mean why would you cut a tree down in March while it is snowing? Then let you maybe 12 year old son play with burning the branches? I mean it is snowing and you are cutting a tree down!??? (the neighbor behind us, not too bright)

Ok so enough on that! I guess it is the lack of sleep and the over abundance of little girl giggles that occur ed today. Nic had a friend over, there were plenty of giggles but along with that came the tears, the "why does she not want to play with me?" and lack of naps. We also "camped" in the living room last night (great nights sleep on the mattress on the floor) so the girls were already tired (thus the quite in the house right now, they are "napping").

We had a fun time, they played and laughed, Grandma spoiled them with McD's for lunch and toys, candy and extra hugs. It made their day as well as hers.

The best part of the day was about an hour ago, after dropping off the friend and running to the store for art supplies for the girls I came home to the smell of MR. CLEAN! Yes the hubby took the slight comment made this morning (fully in jest) to heart and cleaned the top of the fridge and microwave AND did one of the worst jobs in the house, he cleaned the inside of the micro! YES a job that I put off to only 3 times, because I HATE it!!!! I mean I really, really, really, really, really, really hate it! Don't ask me what explodes in there to make it so, could be that it is a convection oven so all the yuck is backed on but there he was with the Mr Clean and a rag scrubbing it. I did have to finish the top of it since his poor hand was cramping but it was nice to have him take care of it.

Next I want him to clean the floors! Guess I may need to make a comment about that too!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Life's Purges

There are times in life where purges happen, whether accidental or on purpose but they happen. You look at your life and decide that there is either something missing or something not right, you take a step back and see it from another view point.

Times change and so do people, you realize that you are not just one of the crowd but rather one that has formed it, no matter if you thought you were insignificant.
Chapters close and new ones open, friendships end and new ones form. You look at who you are and realize the the people who you thought were your friends really were only acquaintances. And those that you thought were only acquaintances are your friends. The subjects that once formed the conversations are gone and there is little to talk about. You see those that once seemed so important fall into the shadows, and those that were in the shadows emerge to see that all the time they were the backbone or the cornerstone.

Purging of your life is like purging the closet of clothes that are out of style. You see that the "clothes" that fit so fine for so long no longer seem to hold their shape, they sag where they should be form fitted and droop where they should be firm. It is when this is realized that you find yourself really looking at what you want both out of life and out of friendships.

The casual friend is fine to call when you have nothing better to do, but the ones that you know you can call when life sucks are the ones that you truly cherish. The friend that you call maybe once a week or if life is crazy you call once a month, but know that they will not be judgemental when you call is the one that you know you will have when you are 90 and sitting with no teeth and having to yell to talk. These are the ones that you do not purge but merge with the memories of life and how great it is to have someone (or more than one) in your life. They are the ones that you have so many personal jokes that you can talk for 15 minutes without anyone around knowing what you are talking about. Where the simple mention of hairy boobies would make you laugh or where is the Fonz, makes you think of great times.

Purging of your life is necessary to keep your sanity, to keep yourself true to who you are. It is what makes you who you are. It allows you to see that there are greater purposes to what you do and how you touch those around you. When you step aside and let those around you lead you, you are unable to stop the flow of the stream, you get caught up in all the commotion that you lose yourself. Stop and purge, when you do this you will see that who you are is not always who you thought it would be.....

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Hubby Drama & My Rants

I truly believe that men have commas. Not periods but commas. And I believe that it is my hubby's time of the month. He has been up and down all week, not to mention that he does not feel well so that adds to the drama.


Let me tell you, when he is one of these moods you do not know who you are going to bed with at night. He works in the financial industry so he is super nervous, but not really nervous more anxious about our financial future. He wants to make sure that there is x amount of $ in the bank "just in case"....
That can be a treat considering life still needs to go on, there are groceries to get and bills to pay. "Pay yourself first" Yeah right when there are several others sitting you right in the face. Oh well we all have those issues, right?

The other day he had a great idea that we are going to pay off 2 of our largest 3 bills by the end of the year. Great I thought but how are we going to do that with having to put on a new roof this summer and still be able to put food on the table. Well we should be able to pay them off but live tight for a while.
I have a problem telling him what I think when it comes to how we spend our money. When it is his idea it is the greatest, but if I think of something he kind of hims and has about it then usually does not go any where.
Last night is a good example, he did not eat lunch so we decided that we would use our "precious" Red Lobster gift certificates that we got from Christmas (yes I too am amazed that they are still not used) for dinner. Well we did not leave the house until almost 6 since he had to play some video game and when we got there the wait was 2 hours long. Well he did not want to wait 2 hours so he said to go to Olive Garden, another 2 hour wait there. No kidding I swear that every person in the surrounding area thought it was a great idea to go out to dinner last night. We finally landed at Hu Hot, a 30 minute wait was fine (mind you we wasted 30 minutes driving around town). Well our "precious" were not good there so we had to pay for dinner. Well I could have made dinner for less! But since it was his idea it was a great idea. I must confess if he said lets just go home after OG then I would have been pissy since I really did not want to make dinner, furthermore I was not really hungry!

Long rant short, I guess I am confused by men! Or at least my man!

Now the up of the week was that he got a raise, I am reluctant to say this since most people out there are either getting laid off or they are having pay freezes, but I am really proud of his hard work. Speaking of work, he had issues all week with the people he works with. They are mostly women and I don't think his years at CC have prepared him for the "BI-ness" of women! Oh well welcome to the crowd!