Not Me Monday Mommy Edition

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to http://www.mycharmingkids.net her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Ok so this weekend was not too busy and it was not too emotional exhausting and it was not too insane that I was ready to go to work this morning.
This weekend was not full of rain in which I tried to make sure that the two girls were not driving me crazy because they could not go out side to play. Nor were they bugging Daddy to make sure that he gave me my Mother's Day gifts. Which I was not extremely excited about what I got.
Speaking of what I did not get, 200 minutes of pure unadulterated pleasure! I did not get 200 minutes of tanning. YES! 200 minutes of NO ONE knocking on the door asking me if they can have something, 200 minutes of no fighting, 200 minutes of me being completely alone, just me and the not so good for me tanning booth!
I also did not cry on the note with the perfect little pre-school and kindergarten hand prints. I also did not get the prettiest flower.
I have to admit that I did not have a wonderful weekend, I did not have the best mother's day outside of #1 and #2! Number 5 was wonderful! It was not a bummer that Mr. Wonderful had to work and therefore did not make the rest of the day insane crazy with running to make sure that we did not make it to the other mom's that made us who we are!

Thanks all and hope you had a not so great Mom's Day!

Not ME Mondays

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to http://www.mycharmingkids.net">her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.



Ok so I did not spend most of my weekend wishing I had enough money to hire someone to Spring Clean it, and I definatly did not spend the other half of the weekend wishing I could make time stand still so I could do all the house work and still have enough time to spend with the girls.

I definatly did not make the hubby take the mower deck off and replace the blades so that I would not have to rake or sweep the lawn this summer. I also did not almost go crazy when we went to 5 different stores for an adaptor for a fish tank cleaner.

I also did not let the kids sleep for 4 hours on Saturday and then wait until almost 7pm to wake them up so we could go to the store to purchase said fish tank cleaner.

I also did not thank my lucky stars that my girls did not go through the "why" stage. And also did not thank those same lucky stars that my niece had to go through tons of ear plugs with her daughters consistent barrage of "whys".

In short there are many things I did not do this week and weekend but one thing I DID do, was to thank all the stars in heaven that I have the best family in the whole wide world!
Oh yeah, I also DID have a large bowl of Rocky Road ice cream for dinner! Yeah I DID that!





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New Me

So I have started this post several times in the past few months, but today I have come to a realization that there must be a new me. A new me that needs to take care of me first.

You see when I became a wife I focused my life on making sure that the hubby was happy and content, that all his needs are taken care of, that the house is clean, that the time I spent with him was centered around things that he liked to do. Then came the kids, I would not trade them for the world but then they became my world. 2am feedings, dirty diapers, laundry to be done, sitters to find, all while working 40+ hours a week. As they grow there are more and more "jobs" to do. Keep the house clean, keep up on the laundry, make sure lunches are made, homework is done and library books are returned. All while making everyone happy....

Well I think it is time for me, time for me to be able to say that waking up at 4:30 am is "me" time, time for me to take a walk, do the sit ups or just sit on the lappy? But instead I am working on laundry, dishes and other "quiet" things... Is it ok for me to do that or is it selfish? Is it ok to be yourself when you are a wife and mom? Why do I feel guilty for not being able to take the time? So that is why it took me some time to finalize this post, because I have finally realized that it is OK for me to be selfish, to take the time for me. That it is OK that I go to "girls night" when the hubby is home with the girls, that it is OK for me to not feel guilty that I DO take time for me.

Along this journey as a person I have realized that I am a strong person, who can accomplish what goals I set up for myself. I know that the hubby and girls believe in me, that they are my biggest fans, that the signs that the hubby has put around the house 6 months ago will be my saving grace, that I CAN be at goal! In my shower there are 5 goals that were written on the walls with the girls bath crayons, these goals were written almost 3 years ago. These goals one by one have been achieved, one of which was last week. The only one up there now that has not been reached is reaching "goal". Achieving the goal weight that I know deep down that I can meet, but have for some reason or another have sabotaged myself, but NOT any more!

I will reach that final goal, I will reach that it, go shopping with the hubby and enjoy every minute of it! I can do it! I will do it and when I am done I will be there will be a NEW ME!

Counting my blessings

I know that there are times in the past year that many of us have stepped back and counted our blessings. Simply having the good fortune of "having" to go to work everyday is great, but then are those of us that have been dealt the crappy hands, those that are usually in the best of modes yet it would be easily understood if they just told you to cram it. I have to admit that I have had to stop as of late and say "hey silly open your eyes!"

You have a great hubby, 2 wonderful girls thus "2 Sweet Girls Mom" and friends who I know if I needed would drop everything and be there. But let me tell you it is harder to wake up in the am and make a go of it. There are the piddly things that just get under my craw! But oh well what are you going to do?! Right?

"Do the Naked Lady"

There are certain songs that are out there that one really does not know the words to, but being humans we insist on singing along with them. Aeorsmith's Dude Looks like a Lady is one that the hubby always got wrong! Instead it was Do the Naked Lady!

So what is that you find yourself singing to or should I say humming to when you realize that you are singing the wrong songs?
Be truthful!

I had a room mate in college that used to sing "Jason Waterfalls" for "Don't go chasin waterfalls"

I know that most of the songs that I sing are not the right words, but who cares, sing them loud and make fun of the person who actually cares as much to tell the right words!

Life is too precious! Thank you Maddie for Reminding Us!

Life is too precious and goes too fast for to not cherish every second we have with loved ones. Whether that be your parents or your kids or your friends, time fl yes by too fast. I have spent a lot of time in the past couple of days reading what others have endured in their lives. I have to say that I am very grateful for those who have touched me and my family, whether good or bad they have some how made an impact on who I am and what I do, how I teach the girls and what we build our values on.

I know that the pain that some of you in "blogland" have experienced in the past week can only be lightened by the truth and knowledge that Maddie is in heaven with some really great company, she is not only with her family and friends but I know of 2 really great men that I have prayed to since I read the first post asking for prayers (my daddy and hubby's grandpa). Rest assured that these 2 wonderful guys will be watching over her and purple wings! They will see to her like their own granddaughter and great granddaughter. They also have some playmates with them, our little angels.

My father did not meet the girls, something I knew would never happen. You see, Dad was 50 when Mom and he had me, so simple math would put him in his 70's before we got married and IF we had kids right away he may have seen them. But being the selfish person I am we waited, it would not have made a difference even if we had them right away since, he died almost 6 months to the day that we got married. But I know that he is very much a part of what and who they are today. Nicki is his granddaughter through and through, she even has a certain look when she is kidding that Dad had. Not to mention that hubby and I both have dark brown eyes and she has the brightest blue (thanks Dad).

I guess I want you all to know that no matter what may happen in our lives, no matter how bad things we think may be, no matter how dark the night is there is always a dawn and with that dawn comes a new day! So go hug your kids, call your parents, IM your best friend and snuggle with your significant other tonight, for you never know when you may have to say good bye!

God's Newest Angel.

Fam in Purple